Lately I’ve been focused. I’ve been focused on letting go of my ego and letting my soul thrive. What is your ego? What is your soul? What does all of this really even mean?
I have always considered myself a free spirit. I have always marched to the beat of my own drum. However, I did not always embrace being different. When I was younger I was terribly shy standing out was something I did not like to do. I always stood out. I stood out from the way I held my pencil, the way I talked, the way I dressed, my interests. I was not like the other girls in my environment. Luckily I was always encouraged by my mom that it’s awesome to be different. Somewhere down the line I grew to love being different. Actually I purposely went against the status quo in different ways. When everyone went right I went left. I grew to love me and the pace in which I was growing. Fast forward to freshman year at Valdosta State I still liked being different but then I wanted to fit in. I started to be a college girl a “fun girl”….you know the girl that’s out often at Thirsty Thursdays, hanging out in the cafeteria with so many of her “friends”, talking to guys like a sports game….basically just being basic. I wasn’t being completely true to myself or my purpose. After a few heart lessons I realized quickly I had to change. I had to be true to myself.
Your ego simply put is the image you have of yourself. Your ego is how society views you. Your ego is what you choose to put on social media. Your ego is a mask. Your ego is concerned with money and success. Your ego is concerned with how others view you. Your ego wants recognition and attention. To some extent your ego is real but it’s not all of you. Your ego consists of different titles and roles. Once again your ego is not all of you. Some may even say your ego is not the real you.
Your soul is real, so real. Your soul is how you treat others that seemingly have nothing to give you. Your soul is your inner voice. Your soul is how you discern right from wrong. Your soul desires to fulfill your God given purpose. Your soul is not glamorous. Your soul asks, “what can I do for others?” Your soul is doing kind things from the heart. Your soul asks, “how can I uplift others?” Your soul is spiritual.
I want my soul to rule my life. I aspire to be SOULed out, not seeking validation from man but living a life of purpose, living for God. I am focused on paying life’s rent….service. I want to get outside mySELF. This life is not solely about me, it’s about the lives I touch. This life is not about stunting on the Gram or throwing the most lavish parties. Life isn’t just one big cocktail party. This life I am LIVING is about the meaningful experiences and relationships I gain along the way. Sometimes I get so caught up on achievement and crossing off goals I forget that the journey is just as important as the achievement.
Soul take over and help me to not ego trip. Being humble, kind and selfless is so underrated.
2018…The Year I Became SOULed Out, The Year I Lived Out My Purpose as a Humanitarian