i need blessings…

to fall right in my lap !


102317.my new balance <3

new balance
most of us are angry
most of us are strangely
more alike than we’d like to believe

most of us are empty
most of us are simply
more alive in the scenes of our dreams

then there’s you

you’ve got something
I’ve been wanting

you’re so new

you’re my salvage
you’re my balance

you’re so new

most of us are hurting
most of us are searching
someone to love
someone to understand

most the time i’m fighting
multiple voices residing
in my head

then there’s you
you bring silence
to my violent truth

you’re my salvage
you’re my balance

you’re so new

it hit me like a tidal wave
knew that i was in love with you right away
turned all my days into brighter days
even when people say what we do is not ok

according to what the people say
who cares what other people say

man fuck what other people say

i’mma ride for you
baby if you gon ride for me

cuz i know
that what we share is real
and I feel so confident in

all you say

when you say

you’ll never leave
you’ll never leave
please never leave

yea, i believe you

most of all
i am thankful
you are just what i prayed for
you are what i was made for

yes, im for sure

most of all
i just want to mean the most to you
most of all baby im just tryna grow with you
i just wanna go with you

cuz you bring so much hope to the picture

some of us do find the one
to fall in love
and off of the
fucking face of the earth with

some of us DO deserve it
a love thats true and perfect

some of us been through it all before

some of us do still come back for more…

rollercoaster of….the 20s

It’s a perfectly mundane Wednesday and I’ve decided to blog. I haven’t blogged in months and I’m ashamed. I struggle with being completely transparent online because naturally I’m a private person. But here it is….I share my everyday insights.

I recently just got finished with watching Nasty Gal the series on Netflix and it was ok. I loved the book way more and if you’re a reader you know what I mean. Nasty Gal is about a 20 something year old girl named Sophia trying to find her way, prove that she’s independent and ultimately become a success story! And well she does… become very successful! Sophia launches her online store and Nasty Gals from all over spend a little or a lot on the vintage items. In the beginning, Sophia was not a success story. As it was depicted from the Netflix show Sophia would steal food from garbage cans, she couldn’t keep a low end job, she was hot tempered and had no real direction with her life. I liked the Netflix series and the book about Sophia “Nasty Gal” because it showed the progression of a young woman. Now the thing that throws me for a loop hole is that in some ways Sophia was privileged but she refused help. While it is admirable to be “independent” it’s not wise to turn down help just to prove a point. The other thing that throws me for a loop hole is that until Sophia found her passion she took nothing seriously. I love how people and millenials especially follow what they are passionate about even if it is risky.

As I watched Nasty Gal I thought about my life and I made comparisons. One thing I noticed is that your 20s are unpredictable. Your 20s are literally a rollercoaster of ups and downs. You can succeed and stunt in one area then in the other area not so much. I’ve been thinking about the quote “I don’t know what’s going to happen next and I love it.” Because at this stage I do not know lol…I’ve always prided myself on having a plan and having the answers. Now I’m just trying to focus on being more present, doing what I want to do and being grateful. Not another day is promised so I might as well enjoy the ride with all its heights.


“her whole life is on a ride….”