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unfortunate events

a series of unfortunate events have been happening lately….ok well maybe not a series maybe just a few events… and they have been happening because I’m always fashionably late.

I am a very relaxed person for the most part and I really enjoy taking my time with….EVERYthing. While I think it’s important to take your time on things…I don’t believe you should have others waiting on you. Personally I dislike when I agree on a time with someone and they show up late. So I don’t understand why I think it’s okay for others to wait on me. Partly I feel that I’m not taking certain things as serious these days because I’m not passionate…you’re probably wondering why do I do things I’m not passionate about…well, I have to make a living. I need to fake it until I make it or at least build a good repertoire for business. I don’t want to be known for being continuously late.

So here are the unfortunate events:

-Yesterday…I could have had an interview but I didn’t. The potential job left me a voicemail thursday asking if I could come in for an interview friday at 2pm. I received the voicemail late and I knew I couldn’t make the interview because I was working at a middle school that friday and wouldn’t get off until 4pm. I called the job early friday morning and attempted to reschedule an interview and they said they would call back to let me know the confirmation. Well I never received a call and I didn’t get off until 4pm as a reminder. I called the job as soon as I got off but the person I talked to basically told me without saying the exact words that I was SOL and I couldn’t reschedule. The job plans to hire next week. What I learned from this is what’s urgent to you isn’t necessarily urgent to anyone else. Don’t wait for a call, text, voicemail when something is urgent to you.

-Today… Ok so I work at a business hotel and depending on the events going on in Atlanta it can get very busy. I was scheduled for a shift at 9am. I should’ve known with the Bronner Bros. show going on this weekend that it would be busy at the hotel and parking would be crazy. I should’ve showed up to my shift super early. Did I do it? Nah. Couldn’t find parking in the employee lot…yikes. Then I tried to park in the regular lot and I was told because I wasn’t a guest I couldn’t park there. They understood I worked for the hotel but they didn’t care…guests come first! blahzeee blah. I even offered to pay for parking and that was reaching, the parking attendant still told me I couldn’t park there…wtf.!! In my head, I imagined myself getting reckless with the attendant but I just let it go…and now I ┬áregret that. Moral of the story I was SOL again…I could easily blame someone else or other factors but truth is all of this is happening because I am always…fashionably late and it doesn’t help me at all.

I need to work on being on time. Being on time doesn’t mean showing up right on the dot it means showing up 20 or 30 minutes ahead of time….I am a struggling young professional but I will get better with practice.

I need

Better Thoughts

Better Vibes

I need to be away from people sometimes.

I really need to clear my mind.

Searching for the substance, clinging to the love.

Only he knows my cries up above.

I vow you won’t see me bend, won’t see me break.

But you can sense the heart ache.

What happened to the smile?

That squeaky laugh?

No one knows until it’s gone.

No one knows how you loved, tried so hard until the well runs dry.

ever witnessed a rose die?

we’re all beautiful unique in our own way but we eventually evolve to dust…

mists in the wind

so we can’t pretend that our lives don’t matter

like we don’t matter

we can’t live life carelessly

we have to do things with intention

fantasy relationships

today I found myself venting to someone. I was quite upset, confused and hurt by a particular situation that I won’t reveal on here..

The person I vented to asked me if I knew what a fantasy relationship was… I had an idea of what a fantasy relationship consists of but I figured I’d look it up to know exactly what it means.

Fantasy relationship- One you prefer to relate to, describe, and require of those in relationships with you; however, the fantasy level of expectation is seldom met.

So basically you want one thing out of a relationship you EXPECT something but the expectations are NOT MET.

Are fantasy relationships healthy?

I think the first step to any issue is to ACKNOWLEDGE the issue…BE AWARE.

then examine your behavior…does your partner know how you feel? Have you voiced things to your partner and not Jon, Joan, Shawn, etc.?

Is your partner making any R E A L EFFORT?

Personally I think there is always room for growth as an individual, as couples. Growth is always good.

There is nothing wrong with being optimistic but at some point your expectations, what you want has to be MET.

If what you want isn’t being MET and you’re constantly expressing how you feel…what’s the purpose of a relationship?

What’s your take on fantasy relationships?

 

 

holidays

It seems like there is a holiday every month and just plain out another reason to spend money.

I admit I celebrate holidays but the older I get the more I realize how commercial they are. We are caught up in the idea of holidays without recognizing the true meaning. We are caught up in impressing others with the nicest gifts…and why?

I’m realizing more that materialistic items or how much money someone can spend is not enough.

Before you celebrate something…KNOW what you are celebrating. Don’t BUY into the hype.

Bag Lady

Bag lady you gone hurt your back
Dragging all them bags like that
I guess nobody ever told you
All you must hold onto, is you, is you, is you

One day all them bags gon’ get in your way
One day all them bags gon’ get in your way
I said one day all them bags gon’ get in your way
One day all them bags gon’ get in your way, so pack light,
Pack light, mm, pack light, pack light, oh ooh

Bag lady you gon’ miss your bus
You can’t hurry up, ’cause you got too much stuff
When they see you coming, niggas take off running
From you it’s true, oh yes they do

One day he gon’ say you crowding my space
One day he gon’ say you crowding my space
I said one day he gon’ say you crowding my space
One day he gon’ say you crowding my space so, pack light
Pack light, mm, pack light, pack light, ooh ooh

Girl I know, sometimes it’s hard and we can’t let go
Oh when someone hurts you oh so bad inside
You can’t deny it you can’t stop crying
So oh, oh, oh, if you start breathin’ babe
You won’t believe it, it feels so much better, so much better baby
Bag lady, let it go let it go let it go let it go oh
Girl you don’t need it
Bet ya love could make it better
Bet ya love can make it better
Bet ya love can make it better, need someone to love you right
Bet ya love can make it better
Bet ya love I bet ya love I bet ya
Bet ya love can make it better, baby baby
Bet ya love can make it better
Bet ya love can make it better, hey hey
Bet ya love can make it better,
I bet ya love I bet you love
Bet ya love can make it better
I bet ya love I bet you love, oh oh oh (Bet ya love can make it better)
Bet ya love can make it better (oh oh oh oh)
Bet ya love can make it better
Bag lady, let it go let it go let it go let it go oh
Yeah you don’t need it

broke & bougie?

broke & bougie?
broke & optimistic?
broke & used to the finer things?
broke & I don’t care to deprive myself?
24 and I don’t have the savings I want….I have something but it’s not enough for what I want to do.
I want to own some valuables that will be dear to me. I want to make investments and not just pay for material things that don’t really mean a thing.
I travel and often times I have no business traveling.
I make time for the things I want to do.
I buy gifts rather big or small because I like to see the ones I love happy.
Money can never buy happiness…I’m clear on that.
Money is a way of f r e e d o m.
I never intend to be focused on money but I never intend to be complacent.

I need to trust the process and believe I won’t always be…broke & bougie.
I need to trust the process and possibly live below my means for a certain period.